"I Am Still The Light"

Friday night I cried and cried.

I couldn't sleep and so until 2 am I poured out my sorrow and anguish and fears and faith onto a blog post that will never be published. 

Sometimes simply the act of writing is healing to my soul.

Boston was home from school, still sick, and so I got to snuggle him all Friday. 

It was difficult to send him to school today. 

But we had to choose faith over fear.

We live in a painful, scary, beautiful, wonderful world,

and God has NOT left us alone.
I tell myself that I can't let the horrible actions of someone else prevent us from living.

We are surrounded by angels and He hears and answers our prayers.

When my heart wants to scream "Why?!" 

I have to trust Him, and pray.

Pray and plead.

There is a poem I came across, written by Cameo Smith of Mt Wolf, PA, that is so beautiful:

Twas’ 11 days before Christmas, around 9:38
when 20 beautiful children stormed through heaven’s gate.
Their smiles were contagious, their laughter filled the air.
They could hardly believe all the beauty they saw there.
They were filled with such joy, they didn’t know what to say.
They remembered nothing of what had happened earlier that day.
“Where are we?” asked a little girl, as quiet as a mouse.
“This is heaven.” declared a small boy. “we’re spending Christmas at God’s house.”
When what to their wondering eyes did appear,
but Jesus, their savior, the children gathered near.
He looked at them and smiled, and they smiled just the same.
Then He opened His arms and He called them by name.
And in that moment was joy, that only heaven can bring
Those children all flew into the arms of their King
and as they lingered in the warmth of His embrace,
one small girl turned and looked at Jesus’ face.
And as if He could read all the questions she had,
He gently whispered to her, “I’ll take care of mom and dad.”
Then He looked down on earth, the world far below
He saw all of the hurt, the sorrow, and woe…
then He closed His eyes and He outstretched His hand,
“Let My power and presence re-enter this land!”
“may this country be delivered from the hands of fools”
“I’m taking back my nation. I’m taking back my schools!”
then He and the children stood up without a sound.
“Come now my children, let me show you around.”
excitement filled the space, some skipped and some ran.
All displaying enthusiasm that only a small child can.
and i heard Him proclaim as He walked out of sight,
“in the midst of this darkness, I AM STILL THE LIGHT.”